I never felt comfortable in my own skin. I hated how my parents raised me. I became a rebellious druggie. I put the blame on them, yet all the while, I was failing in school, breaking promises with friends, and losing job after job because I didn't show up. Everything was falling a part in my life and for me, the only solution was drugs.
I wasted precious years of my life in this blame game until it hit me like a meteor of realization. All the battles that I was facing, I had created myself. And if I had problems with my family, using made them so much worse. I wanted to stop being the mess of a person I had become. And so I embarked on my journey of self restoration.
I now realize that I can't blame everything on my upbringing. I am responsible for my own actions. It's the toughest thing I've had to do — to face my triggers head on and beat them. Sometimes my urge beats me, but that's okay. As long as I'm committed to my recovery and am practicing these Wellgorithms, I know that I'm going to be okay.